One Month...and some change
Its officially been a month, and some change, since I moved to Thailand. One whole month. I feel like I should throw a party! It feels like I just got here and that I have been here forever.
In the past month I have had to learn how to be independent without the usual means of independence that I was used to. I have had to rely on others for things I wish I could have done myself and I have had to call my Thai friends one too many times from a taxi because I was lost.
I have had to learn how to make new community and put myself out there even when I would rather not feel like the awkward one.
I have been stood up and let down but I have also found a home here.
Most of all I think in the last month I have learned how to truly rely on the Lord. He is the only thing that can satisfy a lonely heart but some days and when I try to fill the holes with other things, they are never enough, but the Lord is faithful and good and he has my back, he always has my back!
I have been reminded so many times of how the journey the Lord has had me on for the last couple of years was not just for me. He put me in situations and places to learn and experience things that have become my passions, not so that I can have a great little community and do those things where I am comfortable but so that I can go and create community, real, authentic, messy, community here in this place. I know that my purpose here extends beyond my ministry at GES and I am anxious for the Lord to reveal to me what it is that he wants me to get involved with and which people he wants me to love on and invite into my life.
This past month has been eye opening, challenging, new and exciting, fun and terrifying but its only been a month!
This next month...
I want to get to know at least 1 teenage girl that I can pour into.
I want to be more vulnerable in the community here.
I want to learn to speak more Thai
I want to be more adventurous and see new places
I want my home to be a place of hosting
I want to make new memories and deepen my friendships
I want to find a church to become a part of and get involved with
This next month I pray that the Lord would become greater and that I would become less. I pray that I would listen to his ever small voice and have the courage to be obedient to him even when its uncomfortable. I ask that you join me in praying for these things and encouraging me along the way. September is going to be busy and its my birthday month so I know it is going to be a hard and lonely journey at times but I know that God is faithful and he is my rock.
One month ago I could have only wished that I would be as content as I am today. Now don't get me wrong, this has been no easy road, but it has been one that has been worth it because I know I am right where I am supposed to be.
