Honesty and Photography

Aug 18

I'm going to be honest with you all tonight!

Leading up to Thailand I got more photo requests and wedding offers than I could have dreamed. It broke my heart to turn them all down! People kept telling me go now, move to Thailand, do it, follow this calling there is nothing holding you back. I didn't have a husband or kids or even a boyfriend that's true....but to be honest there was something...it was the lure of a successful dream...one that I could literally see coming true.

But I chose to believe that the Lord really is good and since he was calling me to go to Thailand I had to trust that his plan was better than the dreams I had for myself and my own desires. I thought for sure Erin Spruell photography would just disappear over the next couple of years and I would just have to be ok with it.

But I just posted my first Thailand photo shoot! I'm so thankful because to me it's more than a precious family shoot, it's a glimpse of the faithfulness of the Lord and his love for me! I took a step of faith and gave up my dream of being a successful photographer from the worlds view point and decided to chase after eternal things and that brought me to Thailand, and I am so thankful it did!

I have learned that the Lord requires obedience first. He doesn't just want me to say words he wants me to do. He wants me to trust him that he has my back and just do it. So many times I feel like I have said too many words and never really actually took any action. There are a lot of things to be afraid of in this world but one thing I have learned is that the Lord is faithful and he will fulfill his promises to us, even if we have to wait on them, or give something up to receive them.

My fave song right now says it all. (yes its the same song we have sang a million times at Newspring and all summer at Crossroads Summer Camp, but its words are so true!)

“Oh, I’ve heard a thousand stories
Of what they think You’re like.
But I’ve heard the tender whisper
Of love in the dead of night.
And You tell me that You’re pleased
And that I’m never alone.

You’re a good, good Father.
It’s who You are.
And I’m loved by You.
It’s who I am.

Oh, and I’ve seen many searching
For answers far and wide.
But I know we’re all searching
For answers only You provide.
Because You know just what we need
Before we even say a word.
Because You are perfect in all of Your ways!
You are perfect in all of Your ways!
You are perfect in all of Your ways to us!

Oh, it’s love so undeniable,
I can hardly speak.
Peace so unexplainable,
I can hardly think.
As You call me deeper still.”