Seasons Are Changing
Seasons are changing.
It is almost spring time in America, and over here in Thailand, we are on the brink of hot season. I love seasons. I've always been more of a fall kind of girl but lately anything different feels like a win. After dry season in Thailand, the occasional rain storm makes me so happy, that is until I have to venture outside and its actually flooding, but I love it. I love that changes make you appreciate things and see them in a new way. If every day had a light breeze would we even notice it anymore? But if every day is a sauna and then you have a light breeze one morning it becomes the best thing ever.
That is my favorite part about seasons, the change always seems to make me more thankful.
We all know that I'm leaving Thailand, and my friends here are still denying the fact and my friends in America are celebrating it every day. It's actually down to less than 100 days now, so its very quickly approaching.
Lately, I've been noticing that there is something really special about this season. All of a sudden the little things mean more! Yeah you've caught me, I've become a wee bit sentimental but I've also realized that I have to make the most of the time I have left. It always seems like its Friday again, the days creep by but the weeks are gone before I know it and I feel like I blinked my eyes and now its the end of February!
To make things even harder, I have A LOT to look forward to. In like 30 days, I'll be heading home for MY BEST FRIEND'S WEDDING...it will be nothing like the movie...it will be so much more! I'll get to see my family, celebrate my little sister's engagement, hangout with my friends and spend some good quality time with my boyfriend...all of that in itself is exciting and then at the end of the week I get to stand beside my best friend as she marries the love of her life! And then 2 months later, I'll be moving back to America, living in the same town as said best friend, boyfriend and all my other friends, eating chickfila and going to target on the regular. It will be so weird but also so good and if I'm being honest I'm really really excited about it!
It's very quickly approaching...but I'm not as excited about leaving Thailand.
So, as a new season is on the horizon, I have realized its time to make time for what matters most to me in this current season. Does that mean I spend every day after school working on side projects? Probably not, though I have been very guilty of this these past few weeks. It means I fill up my entire calendar with dinners and coffee dates until I leave, it means I have to be intentional with my relationships here, it means I need to make the conscientious effort to be fully alive, fully present here.
It's weird right now, I'm constantly on the brink of an emotional break down, I have already had a few to be honest. The end is just now beginning and I want to hit the pause button and enjoy each day that I have left here a little longer but I also want to fast forward to the next season. One of my favorite quotes, from Jim Elliot, rings true over and over in my head lately:
“Wherever you are, be all there!”
So here's to the next 3 months in Thailand, I pray that when I get to the end of May that I can smile knowing I made the most of the end of this season. My prayer is that I can be all here and fully present in this season of change.